Hi there again;
first of all, thank you for your feedback. I do appreciate it.
Why do i still study? Because I am in the middle of it and couldnt leave immediately and I am thinking about not re-registering for the next semester.
My folks did support me but am I going to live my life according to their feelings or according to mine? Even though i would always love them and be thankful to them, isnt it fair for me to follow the lifestyle that i choose?
I have read many books about buddhism and I have done extensive research and meditation on it. However, I am sure there are so many things that I will learn about it. The learning process never ends.
How can I be talking the easy way out if I have been a survivor since i was 18 ( both working hard and studying intensively) and I am 27 now. So... i have been in difficult situations in the past. If I wanted to take the easy way out, i could have already done that before i started school and work not to mention i played sports all my life along with school and work ( very busy schedule)
My whole point is that materialistic world doesn't offer any meaning to me not because i am taking the easy way out but because i want to be peaceful without getting carried away with desires just to survive.
Do you see where i am coming from now? I just feel that I am wasting my time by trying to survive and doing the things that society accepts by doing so.
I can only hope that you can give me some information regarding my first question.
Thanks for coming back. You have now given me a much clearer picture of your life. I suppose at your age you have the wisdom to decide what is good and beneficial for you. Yes, you have your life to live and you are free to choose. What I meant earlier was that perhaps your people might need your support, and they might be very disappointed should you terminate your education. Well, I don't really know.
Now to answer your earlier question: "Do you think there are temples in USA or in any country that would accept me and deal with my situation?"
You can find your leads through http://www.buddhanet.net
The best bet is to find temples near you, and then you can go from there. Hope this helps. May you find the right path. Please come back if need be.